My boyfriend surprised me with roses at lunch, whoa. 
I still want that time with him though <3 

BODY: Woke up, said fuck you to the ugly beast in the mirror. Tamed the monster. Went to school. Smoked some bowls. Almost got caught up. Too slick. Passed some tests :D (with Ds). Came home. Grubbed. Tumblr.

MIND: Lately I noticed my bf paying slightly more attention to one of my friends but like usual this is just me assuming things. So I really shouldn’t let this thought get to me…right ? eh.
Not only is this on my mind sometimes, but he’s moving to some new apartments and im scared to death we wont see each other as much but I’m used to not seeing him as much already, its been almost 3 weeks since we actually spent time together like we used to. I couldn’t stay quiet about it any longer so I wrote him a letter to explain to him how I felt and it sounded more like a breakup…but i assured him it wasn’t. A couple hours later he called and we talked about being in love, it felt like old times and it made me almost not want to give him the letter anymore… but now I feel that I mustn’t be a pussy and just give it to him, for the better.

Tried a “Molly” today and it was a fake unfortunately I was fooled by the beginning effect thinking I was rolling. I later then realized the feeling wasn’t a rolling feeling it was just my heart racing, teeth grinding, and my focus everywhere then nowhere. I looked in the mirror and saw how huge my eyes looked. Im gonna stick to my ganja she never makes me feel like a fuckin’ weirdo. Blazing it makes me feel alot better.

Fuck that alarm clock
Fuck the mirror
Fuck the late bell
Fuck those nasty school administrators that think they’re apart of the white house
Fuck the ignorance that lurks in the school hallways
Fuck all that extra work
Fuck those As,Bs,Cs,Ds,& Fs
Fuck the competition
Fuck the mediocre popularity
Fuck those two-faced leeches
Fuck people that enjoy seeing you suffer
Fuck bullies
Fuck being used
Fuck cramming all night for AP tests
Fuck holding it in so you wont see
Fuck being too nice
Fuck people who only want me for bud
Fuck your vision of “beautiful”
Fuck your lies
Fuck the rumors
Fuck this city
Fuck people
Fuck you

 I WILL FOREVER LOVE MARYJANE SHE’S THE ONLY THING THAT GETS ME THROUGH MY HIGH SCHOOL DAYS. ITS ALMOST OVER. I WILL NEVER FORGET HOW MUCH MJ HAS HELPED ME GROWING UP FEELING ALMOST COMPLETELY ALONE.